（買到的蔬菜）
今天是2020年3月2日 星期一 第十七篇
中午後開始下雨，氣溫也有所下降。
2月份的工資還沒有發放，說是銀行沒有營業。這理由很荒唐。
據說一月二十三日下達封城令後，從淩晨2時到上午10時就跑掉30萬人。那些行動如此果決的人都是些什麼人。但就算如此，我還是為他們感到慶幸，雖然他們絕非一群未蔔先知的人。
很早的時候就在想，為什麼我們一旦以某種形式被組織在一起就會成為烏合之眾，平庸、愚蠢乃至邪惡。
他人即是地獄，我們對於他人也是地獄。良知，惻隱之心被我們視作人的底線，但其實底線是會被突破的。所以人們尤其那些大學問家呼籲，要保守底線。而他們拿出的藥方便是教育，但教育也是可以被出賣的。於是啟蒙家們將矛頭指向了制度。但制度如何能夠被改變？制度並非一個人而是所有人共同建造和維護的。面對強暴，有人恐懼，有人歡呼雀躍，最終也有人抗爭，但在抗爭中獲勝的人也要將強暴加諸於他人。於是最終我們回到原點。信仰，是的，信仰是人類精神的原點。信仰不是我們所理解的世界觀，信仰的目光超越了我們所生存的世界。
有一刻我們猶如天使；有一刻，我們如同魔鬼。就好像有時我們很健康，有時疾病纏身而且將病毒傳播給他人。
就好像有人說，我一生勤懇，無愧於家人同事，最終落得求一張床位而不得的結局。其實一開始結局就已經注定，只是各人機緣有所不同而已。
李文華醫生冒險救治冠狀病毒患者的事件已家喻戶曉，而一紙調查報告卻將人們的目光引向了對該醫師行醫資格的質疑，好像我們現在要面對的不是嚴峻的疫情形勢而是對行醫規範的整治。何為大局，何為末節，解釋權永遠把持在某些人手裏。所謂效果及副作用不明確，這些不正是那些醫學家們應該繼續研究求證的課題嗎。由此我這個門外漢也想知道，那些在藥店常年銷售的中成藥的說明書上所標明的副作用尚不明確的字樣，又該作何解釋。醫學界的種種弊端人人皆知，此刻板起一副正人君子的面孔給誰看，又意欲何為。此刻我更想知道，美國的那種具有一定針對性的藥物，經過這麼長時間的試用效果到底如何，到底是行還是不行，為什麼至今沒有消息。
所謂疫情防控在我看來無非是，一般人在掌握科學常識的基礎上積極主動防範，自律。對患者則是積極治療，有床位，有設施，有醫生，有藥物。我覺得就是這麼簡單。所謂簡單，也就是說沒有多餘。前提是尊重科學，尊重常識，尊重人性。如果不是這樣，我們就只能以犧牲為代價，並在次生災害中掙紮，付出更大的犧牲。
今天是相對平靜的一天。雖然有的居民小區有中風病人和其他有待觀察的發熱病人被送入了醫院。
有外地滯留在漢人員申請3000元的救濟金，他們希望得到現金而不是被一般性的安置。
一位解除了隔離期的居民要求做志願者，社區幹部說要研究，其實是婉言謝絕。
今天又購買到一些鹽、味精、醬油、醋香皂及食物。這些物品都沒怎麼漲價，但對一般人家仍是一筆不小的開支，尤其在目前非常時期。沒錢寸步難行，何況很多東西有錢也難得買到。我們可以每天進出小區尚且如此，其他人若非有好的單位組織做依靠，恐怕真的只能將生活需求降低到最簡單最基本的標准，而隔離還要持續多久，誰也不清楚。
一位居民花200元買到4斤豬肉，成色還不錯。
MONDAY, MAR. 2, 2020
It started raining in the afternoon, and the temperature also dropped.
The February payroll has not been paid because the bank is not open.
That is a ridiculous reason.
It is said that 300,000 people left Wuhan city from 2:00 am to 10:00
am after the City Hall issued the order to lock down the city on January
23. What kind of people were those who acted so decisively? But even so,
I’m glad for them, even though they were not a group of people who had
foresight.
Early on, I wondered why we became rabble, mediocre, stupid, and
even evil once we were organized in some form.
Jean-Paul Sartre said, hell is other people. We are hell to each other.
Conscience, compassion, is the bottom line, but it can be breached. That
is why people, especially university scholars, call for the preservation of
the bottom line. The rescue they offer is education, but people can also
sell education as merchandise. So, the Enlighteners pointed the finger at
the system. But how can the system be changed? The system is not built
and maintained by one person but by all. In the face of rape, some people
fear, some rejoice, and some fight. Those who win the fighting can also
inflict rape on others. And so, we come back to the starting point. That’s
faith; yes, faith is the origin of the human spirit. However, faith is not a
worldview as we understand it; faith looks beyond the world we live in.
There are moments when we are like angels and moments when we
are like demons. It’s like sometimes we’re healthy, and sometimes we’re
sick and spreading the virus to others.
It’s like someone saying, “I’ve worked hard all my life, and I don’t
feel ashamed standing in front of my family and colleagues. However, I
ended up begging for a hospital bed but still couldn’t get one. The ending
has been predetermined from the beginning, although the chance of each
person is different.
The incident of Dr. Li Wenhua’s risky treatment of a Covid-19 virus
patient has become a famous name. Still, an investigation report has
drawn attention to questions about the doctor’s qualifications to practice
medicine. What we are facing now is not the difficult situation of the
pandemic but the regulation of the practice of medicine. The right to
explain the big picture and the last detail is always in the hands of some
people. The so-called effects and side effects are unclear. These are not
precisely the subjects that medical doctors should continue to study for
proof. A non-specialist would also like to know what explanation should
be given for the uncertainty of the side effects indicated on the
instructions of those proprietary Chinese medicines sold in pharmacies
all year round. We all know about the shortcomings of the medical
profession, but what is the purpose of putting up a decent face for
whoever wants to see it? I am curious to know the outcome of American
medicine after such a long period of trial, whether it works or not, and
why a response has yet to be made.
In my opinion, the so-called pandemic prevention and control is
nothing more than the active prevention and self-discipline of the public
based on scientific knowledge. For patients, it is active treatment, with
beds, facilities, doctors, and drugs. I think it is that simple. The so-called
simple, that is to say, there is nothing extra. The premise is to respect
science, common sense, and human nature. If not, we will have to
sacrifice and struggle with secondary disasters and pay more sacrifices.
Today was a relatively quiet day, although some neighborhoods had
stroke patients and other patients with fever admitted to the hospital.
There were 3,000 yuan of relief money applications from people
stranded outside of Wuhan who wanted cash rather than general
placement.
There is a resident released from isolation asking for volunteers. The
cadre of the community service center said he would look into it. It’s a
way to decline politely.
Today I bought some salt, MSG, soya sauce, vinegar, soap, and food.
These items have not gone up in price much. However, they are still a
significant expense for the average person, especially in these
extraordinary times. Without money, it is difficult to get around, not to
mention that many things are hard to buy, even with cash. We can go in
and out of our apartment buildings in neighborhoods every day. Suppose
others don’t have good organizations to rely on. In that case, I’m afraid
they can only reduce their needs to the most basic levels for living.
Nobody knows how long the isolation will last.
A resident spent 200 yuan on buying 4 pounds of pork. The color
of the pork looks fresh.
(Bought vegetables)
