今天是2020年2月20日星期四 第六篇
天氣晴朗，非常暖和。
昨天完成了買藥任務，整個人松了口氣，結果睡過了頭，直到上午九時許才走出小區。
這個小區建設於上世紀九十年代中期，其實就是近百棟樓房兩千多戶人家聚在一塊兒，沒有物業，四通八達。現在被堵得死死的，只留一個出入口，被人把守著。
一般人的預感總是遠離真相，但我們普通人多數時候就生活在這不靠譜的直覺之中。只要你信，生活就可以充滿神秘，而且百思難解。
說到預感，早在打貿易戰的時候就有人開始對未來充滿了憂慮。以前我經常到濱江公園現在叫做江灘公園散步，那裏每天都有些老頭子湊在一起談論國事。中美貿易戰硝煙剛起，一些人的心裏就起了沙子。例如一個老家夥為防不測居然在家中存了四百多斤大米，說是照他家人口計算，這些米剛好能吃到明年也就是2020年的四月份，而且冷天米也不會生蟲子。我雖然覺得有些可笑，但心情也很是壓抑。我對國家不感興趣，但對自己未來的生活不能不關心，我也覺得照這樣折騰，2020年肯定不樂觀。
很多事情回想起來真是令人心驚。2019年12月10日左右，我母親突然患病。據她事後回憶，那天中午她正在爐灶前炒菜，突然全身發冷，寒戰，然後四肢乏力作痛，頭暈，上吐下瀉。當時我們都認為是重感冒，喂了一些藥讓她臥床休息，但夜間開始發燒，又服了幾片藥狀況稍好些，第二天又開始反複。14日仍無好轉，擔心發展為肺炎，便去中心醫院就診。照例經過一系列的檢查，除了缺鉀比較嚴重（指數僅為2.7），其他的都很正常。我們覺得應該問題不大，打些消炎針和補鉀的針，開些藥就不會有事了。但醫生卻要求立即住院，大喊大叫說，不住院是會死人的！我們也不知道怎麼回事，慌忙辦理手續，住進了內科急診監察室。此後母親持續高燒，急診內科的主任就是那位現在網上熱議曾受到訓誡的女醫生對我母親非常重視，其他醫生也都很緊張，低聲議論說，又一個發熱的，到底怎麼回事……。之後，我母親也在當時來說是破例做了核酸檢測，數天後才有結果，好在是陰性。我母親住院時間是周六，到下星期一，一大早我們就看見中心醫院就醫的病人擠滿了門診大廳，多數為發熱病人。詭異的是，到星期二就醫人數又減少到正常狀態。不管如何母親總算治療及時，順利地康複出院。之後我父親可能是受到感染也開始發燒，寒戰，全身疼，幹咳。但他堅持不去醫院，就在家中服藥臥床，一個星期後竟自然康複了。據說之後武漢發熱病人又開始激增。期間我母親照慣例到中心醫院消化內科看門診，這時候醫生們已經非常緊張，還說我母親真是膽子大，這種時候還到醫院來，讓她趕緊拿藥回家，千萬少出門。再之後忘記了具體時間，單位同事接到微信信息，說是海鮮市場出現了很多傳染性極強的病毒感染病人，提醒大家防範。一時間議論紛紛，但又無法證實真偽。再之後媒體開始辟謠。再之後我們就變成了現在這個樣子。
這期間還有件非常重要的事情。元旦前弟媳回國探親，從來不去教堂的父母在弟媳的勸說下都去教堂去做了禮拜，弟媳的父親還做了洗禮。至目前，我們大家身體狀況都很好。確實，我們都受到了神的庇護。感恩！
今天，小區的管控好像又平靜了些，那些機關幹部的人數好像也變少了。晚上我下班回家時，出入口只有兩個黨員志願者，看見我還主動打招呼說，下班了啊。挖槽，這一冷一熱還真有些像感冒發熱啊。
不過，現在小區真的是不許一般居民出門了，超市也停止了營業，居民買菜購物都通過微信組團。這樣一來生病的居民尤其重症患者買藥成了大問題，於是上面領導就讓社區負責。消息一傳出，社區立刻就接到了二三十位居民送來的重症病曆和醫保卡，有的還附上了現金。最重要的是從明天起給這些重症病人買藥的任務竟然交給了我。按說這是辦善事，必須給辦好，但萬一有個差池，或者藥沒有買到，或者錢給弄錯了，我必定是那個被罵得狗血淋頭的人，
至於那些非重症的病人的買藥問題，社區也想到了辦法，就是交給社區的居民黨員來完成反正他們。呆在家裏沒事，出來透透風也算是個解放，而且在這種時候他們都自然地成了志願者，不願意也不行。用我們的話說，黨員不是那麼好當的，現在正是體現他們的先進性的時候。
老實說，我還真是很憂鬱。封閉的期限在延長，不知道盡頭在哪裏，人不是一個物件可以隨便放在一個房間中無視時間的沖擊。各種矛盾問題都在萌發之中，病人、老人、沒有了收入的困難居民群體等等等等，怎麼處置，辦法在哪裏？
（為社區居民某買的藥物）
February
THURSDAY, FEB. 20, 2020
It is a sunny and hot day today.
Yesterday I completed the task of buying drugs. I was so relieved that I overslept until about 9:00 am this morning.
The apartment buildings where I live were built in the mid-1990s. There are nearly 100 buildings, more than 2,000 families gathered in one big complex, no management office, four-way traffic everywhere. Now it is blocked, leaving only one exit, guarded by security.
The average person’s premonition is always far from the truth. Most of the time, ordinary people live with this unreliable intuition. However, life can be puzzling and full of mystery if you believe in its existence.
Speaking of premonitions, as early as the trade war, some people began to be worried about the future. I used to go for a walk in Binjiang Park, now called Hankou Jiangtan Park, where every day some older men get together to talk about national affairs. When the trade war between the United States and China started, some people got sand in their hearts. For example, an old guy stored more than 400 pounds of rice at home, in case of an accident, saying that, “According to his family’s population, the rice would be ready to eat by next year, that is, April 2020, and that the rice would not have worms in cold weather.” I felt a little ridiculous, but I was also very depressed. I’m not interested in the country’s future. I can’t help but be concerned about my future life. I think that if we keep going like this, 2020 will not be a good year.
It’s surprising how many things come back to haunt me. On December 10, 2019, my mother suddenly became ill. According to her later recollection, she was frying vegetables on the stove at noon when she suddenly felt chill all over her body, followed by weakness, dizziness, vomiting, diarrhea, and pain in her limbs. The first time I saw her, I thought she had a bad cold. I gave her some cold medicine and let her rest in bed. She started to have a fever at night and took a few more pills.
After the usual series of tests, everything was normal except for the potassium deficiency, and the index was only 2.7. We thought it would not be a big problem, so we gave her some anti-inflammatory injections, potassium supplements, and prescribed medicine. I figured she would be fine. However, the doctor asked her to be hospitalized immediately, shouting that it would kill her if she was not hospitalized! We didn’t know what was going on, so we hurriedly went through the procedure. She was admitted to the emergency room of the internal medicine department. After that my mother continued to have a high fever. The chief of the emergency medicine department, a female doctor, who her hospital admonished for telling the truth about Covid-19, was very concerned about my mother. The other doctors were also very nervous, whispering, “Another one with a fever, what the hell is going on?” The other doctors were very nervous and whispered, “Another one with a fever?” Afterward, my mother had a nucleic acid test, which was an exception at the time, and the results came back a few days later but it was negative.
My mother was hospitalized on Saturday. The following Monday, we saw the Central Hospital filled with patients early in the morning, most of them with fever. Strangely enough, on Tuesday, the number of patients dropped back to normal. In any case, my mother was treated in time and was discharged from the hospital. After that, my father started to have a fever, chills, body aches, and dry cough, probably because of the infection. However, he insisted on not going to the hospital, took medicine at home, stayed in bed, and recovered naturally after a week. It was said that the number of feverish patients in Wuhan started to increase again. My mother went to the gastroenterology department of the central hospital for her routine outpatient visit. By this time, the doctors were already very nervous. They said that my mother was bold to come to the hospital at such a time. They told her to get her medication, go home as soon as possible, and not leave the house. After that, I forgot the exact time but my colleagues in the unit received a message on WeChat that there were many infected patients with highly contagious viruses in the seafood
market, reminding everyone to take precautions. There was a lot of discussion for a while, but there was no way to confirm the truth. Then the media started to dispel the rumors. And then we reached a situation like this.
During this period, there was another significant event. Before New Year’s Day, my sister-in-law was back from overseas. My parents, who never go to church, were persuaded by my sister-in-law to go to church for worship. My sister-in-law’s father was also baptized. So far, we are all in good health. Indeed, we are all under God’s protection. Thank God everything is alright!
Today the monitoring of the apartment buildings seems to have calmed down a bit. The number of patrolling personnel from the authorities seems to have decreased. When I came home from work in the evening, only two CCP volunteers were at the gate. When they saw me, they greeted me warmly, “Are you off work?”. I’m not sure what is in their mind. One day they are freezing. Another day they are hot. It’s just like they caught a cold.
However, now the community service center does not allow the general residents to go out. Supermarkets have also closed, and residents shopped through the WeChat groups. Online shopping makes it a big problem for sick residents, especially those seriously ill who need to buy medicine. The government officers then let the community service center in charge. As soon as the news got out, the community center immediately received prescription sheets and medical insurance cards from 20 to 30 residents in their critical illness conditions. Some of them even dropped cash. The most important thing is that from tomorrow onwards, the task of buying medicine for these seriously ill patients was given to me. Taking care of those sick people is a good deed and must be done correctly, but if I make a mistake with money or if the medicine is out of stock, I will be the one to be scolded.
As for those non-critical patients, the community service center has also thought of another way to buy medicine: to leave it to the community
center CCP members of the residents to finish it. It’s a temporary release from quarantine homes to get some fresh air, and they should become volunteers at such times, even if they don’t want to. In our words, CCP members are not so easy to be, and now is the time to realize their unique attributes as CCP members.
Honestly, I’m depressed. The lockdown is being extended. I don’t know where the end is. A person is not an object that can be put in a room and ignore the impact of time. All kinds of contradictions and problems emerge together. How to take care of the sick, the elderly, needy residents who have lost their income, etc.? How to deal with them, and where are the solutions?
