今天是2020年2月18日星期二 第四篇
天氣依然晴朗，氣溫還在回升。
終於聽到了消失多日的鳥鳴。也看見一些麻雀在樹木間翻飛，雖然數目不多。
面對只有顯微鏡才能觀察到的病毒，我們如此脆弱，不堪一擊，但也要承認人類作為一個整體、作為生命世界的優勝者仍然強大無比，至少在我還沒有出生的時候，人就開始打太空的主意並在遙遠得令我們難以想象的星球上留下了痕跡。確實，病毒及其他生物從未戰勝過人類，否則也就不會有現在的我們。
但人的意義不在於他的整體性，我們每一個人都是一個獨立的世界和宇宙，人和蜂群有本質的區別。
對一個逝者來說，在他離去的那一刻，所有的一切包括人類的曆史都散作灰塵。但依然有人在尋找證明價值和意義，他們相信靈魂，相信神，相信今生是一座通向彼岸的橋梁，死，是那最耀眼的跳躍。
清早起來，看見滿目的陽光，我確信自己活著，並在生活。
在上班的路上，我又看見迎面而至的消毒車，散發著濃烈氣味的消毒水噴我滿頭滿臉。對於生活，他們比我有信心有魄力。在出入口有人叫我師傅，也有人叫我喂，也有人省去了那個喂…….
從理論的角度看，語言真是囊括了我們的一切，我們可以從中看見我們自己。今天的一則消息說，某個小區一位六十歲的老太擅自翻越隔離欄而被摔死。我不明白擅自翻越是什麼意思，難道還有被批准翻越與不被批准翻越的說法和規則？人連山都可以翻越，為什麼不能翻隔離欄，如果老太太突然想到家裏煤氣沒關或者留在家中的小孫子可能面臨危險，那她為什麼不能翻？網絡上都在為湖北電影制片人常凱先生的病逝而歎息，而我覺得如果其他同常凱先生一樣被病毒奪去生命的人的名字可以被抹去，那麼常凱先生的名字也可以不提。媒體報道，武漢有十多位領導被追責，也有十幾位領導被提拔，這些十幾位被提拔的領導我從未聽說過，周圍的人也不認識他們。真是圈子太小，孤陋寡聞。在記者招待會上，鐘南山先生預測疫情拐點，但他說的拐點不是我們所認為的拐點，在他的預測中我們所期待的拐點要在四月底才會出現。我覺得三月底就夠了。照現在這個樣子，超過三月底這個期限將會出更大的亂子。
在小區裏看見有人遛狗，給同事說起來才知道原來養狗的人家幾乎都這樣，遛狗是每天都要做的事情。
母親的藥還是沒有買到。經與中心醫院聯系確認，非發熱的重症患者目前只能到漢口黃石路重症大藥房去購買。趕早不趕晚，明天必須去排隊買藥。不知道社區的司機是否願意再辛苦一下幫忙捎我一程，但這是必須要辦好的事。
在社區裏做了一下消毒的工作，噴灑84消毒水，給幾家孤寡失獨老人送了些蔬菜等等。其實社區並不止做這些事，比如還有登記上報各種表格、接聽居民電話、解答居民提出的問題、回複政府部門轉來的各種投訴等等工作。當然這些都是比較重要也是很精細的活兒，還輪不到我們來做，打個雜，打個下手什麼的我還比較拿手。我們這裏的社區是一種組織，不是一些老外所認為的那種社區，也不是村委會。性質完全不一樣。
又花二十多元錢買了一根白蘿蔔，一棵大白菜，一把白菜苔。准備趁送藥的機會一並給父母送過去。政府部門也在抑止物價，囤聚居奇謀取暴利的奸商一向為國人不齒，但國人也一向不清楚什麼才是奸商，如何才叫暴利……..
目前還不清楚生活拮據又失去收入的市民們該如何維持眼下的生活，能否得到救濟……
有人在路上看見一個流浪者。下班時，我看見一個老頭坐著輪椅在空蕩蕩的人行道上發呆，很奇怪，不知道是怎麼回事。
我們其實是一些想法很古老的人，當然古老的後面還有加上文明這兩個字……
TUESDAY, FEB. 18, 2020
The weather is still sunny, and the temperature is rising.
Finally, I heard the birdsong, which had disappeared for many days. I also saw some sparrows flying among the trees, though there were not many.
Human beings are so vulnerable to viruses because we can only observe them through a microscope. Yet, it is also essential to acknowledge that humans as a whole are still quite powerful. Before I was born, humans began to explore space and left their mark on a planet so far away that we can hardly imagine. Ultimately viruses and other creatures have never defeated humans. Otherwise, we would not be here now.
But the meaning of human beings is not in its totality. Each of us is an individual in the world and universe. There is an intrinsic difference between humans and bees.
For a person now of death, everything, including human history, disappears, shattering into dust. But there are still people looking for proof of the value and meaning of life. They believe in the soul, believe in God, believe that this life is a bridge to the other life, and death is the most dazzling jump between life and death.
When I woke up in the morning and saw the sunlight, I was sure I was alive and living.
On my way to work, I saw the upcoming disinfection truck again and felt the strong smell of disinfectant sprayed all over my head and face. Yet, they have more confidence and courage in life than I do. At the gate of the apartment building, some people call me Master. Others say hello, and some even do not say hello …
From a theoretical perspective, language encompasses everything about us, and we can see ourselves in it. In today’s news, a 60-year-old woman was killed in a neighborhood when she tried to climb over a fence
without permission. I don’t understand what it means to climb without permission. Was there a rule about being allowed to climb over it or not? Why couldn’t she climb if the old lady suddenly thought that the gas was still on at home or that her grandson might be in danger? On the Internet, people are mourning the death of Hubei filmmaker Chang Kai. I think if the names of others who have lost their lives to the virus can be erased, then Mr. Chang Kai’s name can also be left out.
The media reported that more than a dozen leaders in Wuhan were held accountable and promoted more than a dozen. I had never heard of these promoted leaders, nor did anyone around me know them. The circle is too small. I don’t know anything about them.
At the press conference, Mr. Zhong Nanshan predicted the turning point of the pandemic, but he said it would not be the inflection point that we thought it would be. So, I think the end of March will be enough. If the pandemic continues now, there will be a bigger mess in the city after March.
I saw people walking their dogs in the neighborhood today. I told my colleague about it, then realized that almost all people who have dogs do so, and walking their dogs is something they must do every day.
My mother’s medicine is still not available. After contacting the central hospital, I was told that non-febrile patients with severe illnesses could only go to the Hankou Huangshi Road Critical Care Pharmacy to buy medicine. So, I must get in line tomorrow to buy the medicine. I don’t know if the drivers in the community center office would be willing to give me a ride. It’s something that needs to be arranged now.
I did some disinfection work in the Community center office, sprayed disinfectant, and gave some vegetables to a few widows, widowers, and elderly without children. The responsibilities of the community center office include:
Registering and reporting various forms.
Answering questions and phone calls from residents.
Responding to multiple complaints referred by government departments.
These are more important and delicate tasks that are not our job. I’m better at miscellaneous and handyman work. Our community office here is a kind of organization, not the kind that some foreigners think of, nor a village council. The function of a community office is entirely different.
I bought a radish, a cabbage, and a handful of green vegetables for more than 20 yuan. I’m going to deliver them with medicine to my parents. The government is also suppressing prices. Hoarding for profiteering has always been a disgrace to the nation, but the government has never been clear about what constitutes profiteering and what will be identified as unfair profit.
It is still unclear how people living in poverty and who have lost their income can survive. Will they be able to receive help?
Someone saw a homeless person on the road. At the end of my shift, I saw an older man sitting in a wheelchair on an empty sidewalk, wondering what was going on.
We are the people with ancient ideas, of course, adding the word “civilization” to the old ideas……
