今天是2020年2月15日星期六 第一篇
自1月23日封城以來，作為武漢居民，我們被禁錮在一個個小小的名曰家的房間裏。足不出戶是絕大多數市民的常態，而能夠在這種狀態下生存的人們卻還是幸運的…….
實際上身處疫情中心的人對疫情的真實情況並不比其他城市的人了解的更多。禁足使我們與外界隔離，網絡成為人們了解疫情重要的渠道和窗口。我們通過網絡得到的各種信息都彌足珍貴，但就在這個時候，我的微博被封掉了，不能發布轉載任何信息，也不能留言，當然也不能與網友們相互交流問候。
自有文字以來，人們用文字記錄大千世界人生百態，但這場對我們普通人來說是突如其來（原本不該如此）的災難，我們的文字到底能留下多少真實，此刻我對語言文字以及影像等等工具的能力不無懷疑。
身處疫情中心的我們對外界一無所知，這種說法不無道理，但外界的人們總是迫切地想要了解我們。很多作家名人都在記錄這場疫情，比如我們知道的方方，他們的文字撩動了很多人的心緒，但所有的文字都只可能是作者自己的表達。方方所記錄的是她作為作家協會主席知名作家的所見所聞所思，是她身處的文聯大院，是她的領導和作家朋友們的遭遇和他們之間的感慨思索哀痛和對眾多市民的同情悲憫。
今天，城市的管控情況並沒有多大的變化，看來昨天傳言的實行更加嚴厲的封城信息並不准確或者並沒有得到實施，雖然實際情況我們不得而知。
昨天天氣預報，今天會有大雪，氣溫會下降很多。這不是一個好兆頭。我們通過媒體得知冠狀病毒不懼寒冷，喜歡潮濕。悲觀的情緒一旦出現，在現在的狀態下就會很快地蔓延開去。人的心情比天氣更加陰沉。
昨天晚間刮起了大風，響了幾聲雷鳴，這應該算是春雷了。然後下起雨來，這風雨好像一直持續到今天上午。下午約3點時開始下雪，還真是大雪，飄滿了整個天空。那些重症患者、老年慢性病患者更難捱了。好在今天的溫度不是太低，漫天大雪降到地面立刻化作了冰水。小區裏的幾株梅樹都開了花，有紅的，白的，不少也不多。
病毒肺炎是世界關注的焦點，但那些其他病痛患者難道不應該得到妥善的安排嗎，事實上這些病人的數目更加龐大。而現在各大醫院基本上都關閉了專科門診，醫護力量也都抽調到發熱門診。如我母親是克羅恩病患者，就面臨無法看門診的難題，只好自己到重症藥店去買藥，而全市的重症患者用藥都依靠這有限的幾家藥店，其情形可想而知。按照政府的通告，這些事情都可以通過社區提供的服務來解決，而且街道也確實給各社區派遣了幾輛網約的士，但每個社區都有1到2千多戶家庭，如何照應得過來，何況社區工作人員每月只有2000多元的工資，從封城到現在都在加班，沒有一天休息，而且面臨隨時被感染的風險，你能指望他們能發揮多大的作用，能有多大工作熱情和積極性呢。現在派到社區的車輛，每位司機每天是600元的報酬，社區工作者這段時間能有多少補貼至今不清楚。
我想強調的是對這些重症患者以及那些需要急救的非發熱病人來說，如果面臨坐在家中就是等死的處境，他們又該或會做出怎樣的選擇呢。
從封城開始到現在，政府的各種通告決定並改變著人們的生活，但這些措施都給人顧頭不顧腚缺乏各職能部門統籌協作的感覺，都有倉促應付之嫌。或許這也正是防疫工作遲遲不能步入正軌的原因。
正在敲打這些文字的時候，突然接到父母的電話，家裏的煤氣用完了，事先預備的電磁爐也好像壞了，兩位七八十歳高齡的老人沒法做晚飯，好在我在社區工作，還是很方便地聯系到入駐社區的司機，連帶著帶了些蔬菜趕去，最終解決了問題。但現在還是有些擔心，自己會不會將病毒傳給他們，願神保佑我們吧！
SATURDAY, FEB. 15, 2020
Since the city being locked down on January 23, we as residents of Wuhan have been confined to a small room called “home.” Most citizens died in their homes. Those who could survive in the pandemic are the lucky ones.
The reality is that people at the center of the pandemic don’t know much more about the real situation than people in other cities. The Internet became an important channel and window into the pandemic, as we were isolated from the outside world. The information we received through the Internet was valuable. Still, my WeChat account was blocked by security authorities. I could not post any information, leave comments, or exchange greetings with my friends.
Since the beginning of literacy and writing, people have been using words to record all kinds of life in the world, but this was a sudden and unforeseen disaster for ordinary people. How much truth can our comments leave behind? Now, I have doubts about the power of language, text, video, and other communication tools.
It’s not unreasonable to say that we at the center of the pandemic know nothing about the outside world, but people outside are always eager to understand us. Many writers and celebrities documented the pandemic, such as Fang Fang, whose words have touched many people’s hearts. Fang Fang recorded what she saw, heard, and thought as a famous writer, as the President of the Writers’ Association. She recorded it as the Chairwoman of Federation of Literary Societies, as a resident of the apartment building where she lived. She recorded what happened to her
writer friends and their feelings of sorrow and compassion for many citizens.
It seems that yesterday’s rumors of a stricter lockdown were inaccurate or not implemented, although we don’t know about the actual situation.
Yesterday, the weather forecast said, “There would be heavy snow today, and the temperature would drop a lot.” That is not good news. We know through the media that the Covid-19 virus does not fear cold and likes humidity. Once pessimism sets in, it spreads quickly in the present state. People’s moods are gloomier than the weather.
Last night there were strong winds and a few thunderclaps, which is considered spring thunder. Then it started to rain, and the wind and rain seemed to last until this morning. It started snowing at about 3:00 pm, and it was heavy snow with snowflakes filling the sky. Those who are seriously ill or chronically ill are having a more challenging time. The good thing is that today’s temperature is not too low. The heavy snow that fell to the ground immediately turned into ice water. A few of the plum trees around the buildings are in bloom, red and white.
Viral pneumonia is the focus of the world’s attention but shouldn’t those with more severe illnesses be treated accordingly? The number of these patients is disproportionately higher. Nowadays, all major hospitals have closed their specialist clinics and all medical staff is being redeployed to fever clinics. For example, my mother, a Crohn’s disease patient, faces the problem of not going to the outpatient clinic, so she must go to a critical care pharmacy to buy her medicine. The city’s critical care patients rely on these few pharmacies for their medication. According to the government’s notice, these things can be solved through the community service center and the street branch office has dispatched several online cabs to each community. However, there are about 1,000 to 2,000 families in each community. How can a community service center take care of them all! The community service workers are only paid about 2,000 yuan per month and work overtime without a day off since the city
was shut down. They face the risk of being infected by the Covid-19 virus at any time, so how much can you expect them to do? And how much enthusiasm and motivation do they have? Now the drivers of the vehicles assigned to the community are paid 600 yuan per day. It is not clear how much the community service center will subsidize the workers during this period.
I want to emphasize that for these critically ill patients and those non-febrile patients who need emergency care, what choice should, or will they make, if they are faced with the situation of sitting at home and waiting to die?
Various government announcements have determined and changed people’s lives from the beginning of the city shutdown to the present. But unfortunately, all these measures give the impression of a lack of coordination and cooperation among various functional departments, and they all seem to be rushed. Perhaps this is the reason why the pandemic prevention work has been so slow to get on track.
While I was typing these words, I suddenly received a call from my parents that the gas cylinder in their house had run out and the induction stove they had prepared beforehand seemed to have broken down, so two elderly aged, 70 and 80, could not cook dinner. So now I’m a little worried that I might spread the virus to them. May God protect us!
